As you know, I have struggled with my weight all my life and despite being slimmer than I used to be, I’m still not satisfied. I’ve learned to accept that I will always be curvy and I’m happy with that, but I hate my stomach. I lack body confidence and feel I always need to hide my wobbly bits rather than wearing what I’d like and being proud. I know I’ll never have a body like a model and I’m not after showing my body off in a bikini, but I would like to feel good about how I look. I wonder if I ever will feel good about myself, but I also have realised recently that this lack of confidence in how I look affects how I present myself and instead I shy away from crowds or drawing attention to myself. I feel that people judge others on their appearances and have never felt on par with people of my age.
I’ve mentioned before that I’ve tried a variety of diets and know that diets need to become part of your lifestyle. I’ve struggled to maintain what’s required from the Body Coach App due to the price of the meals and lack of choice as well as keeping up the exercise. I quite enjoyed doing it and believe it helped me cope with the stressful times I have been through, but it wasn’t giving me the results I wanted to see fast enough. It’s funny because I realise that the best way to sustain weight loss is for it to be slow and steady rather than drastically loosing it over a short period of time.
I wanted to lose ½ stone which isn’t much, but I still haven’t managed to achieve this. I think there is more to dieting that we think. Our bodies are all built differently, and I think what works for one person may not work for others. I know people who can lose weight just by cutting back on what they eat without doing any exercise and I do mean no exercise at all. This frustrates me as the only times that I have successfully lost weight is when I’ve combined healthy eating with exercise, and I am not a fan of exercise. I like dancing and will enthusiastically join in with the girl’s dance class or Saskias School of Dance videos (Saskia’s Dansschool – YouTube) or do my ‘mum’ dancing to songs whilst singing my heart out. I don’t mind doing aerobic exercises, but I don’t particularly enjoy it. I battle with myself as I lack motivation, I really want to lose a bit of weight and feel better about myself but I’m not doing enough exercise consistently to achieve this.
Wouldn’t it be good if we could choose where we lost weight from? Why do we lose weight from our fingers (I know I have, as rings have become too big) but not our stomach?!
So, I am now trying Noom which was recommended to me, I feel hesitant about it and am becoming resigned to not losing the weight I want but I am giving it a go. So far, I like how when reading through the course it is funny and sarcastic and real. I like the psychology behind it and how it drip feeds into you. Before starting Noom I wasn’t drinking anything other than tea but due to Noom nagging me to drink water and how good it is for us I am now walking around with a water bottle aiming to drink 2 litres a day. Noom requires you to log everything you eat, and it is interesting to see how many calories are in things. I’ve been given an allowance of 1200 calories per day and I now think twice if I enter a food into Noom and I don’t like how many calories it says it is! It also puts food into a traffic light system, and it gives you a limit of calories for each colour. No foods are off limits which is a good thing for me, but you can’t have many red foods. The other thing I have found interesting is low calorific density foods fill you up quicker with fewer calories than high calorific density foods therefore we should aim to eat foods rich in water as well as vegetables and whole grains. I’m not sure how long I’ll be able to keep it up, but I like being rewarded for reaching my step goal as I get given some extra calories. Let’s see if I start seeing results!